I went ahead and emailed our midwife today, just to make sure she's going to be available in October. She is, so that's one less thing to worry about. There have been some new laws passed recently regarding birth certificates in this state, so I will have to go to an OB at least once at some point to have the pregnancy "professionally" documented. I don't intend to have an ultrasound or glucose test or any of that other good junk, just an official pregnancy test so I can be done with it. The midwife doesn't want to see me until I'm around 20 weeks unless there is a problem or I need help with something. I like her already.

I guess some people would not be so comfortable with such an arrangement, but I am of the firm belief that my body knows how to grow a baby just fine, and unless there is a problem I intend to stay home where I am comfortable and can gestate in peace. My hubby would love an ultrasound to find out the gender of the baby (he has his heart set on a girl) but I caved the last pregnancy and let him have his ultrasound (it was a horrid experience at the OB's office too, to say the least) so this time it's my turn.

Still no real symptoms to speak of, just really (REALLY) tired.

Well, whether I was convinced or not it looks like we're going to have a little pumpkin addition come this October. Got a +++ on an hpt this morning. Hubby is very pleased with himself. Give him time to remember how very bitchy I am while preggers and that grin will slide off his face . Nah, I'm not that bad, really, although I do of course have my moments.

I'm in a little tiny bit of a state of panic at the moment. Happy, but panicked. I never really thought I'd be a mom to five! Really I never thought I'd be a mom to four ha ha! But going from 2 to 3 and 3 to 4 was much easier than the transition from 0-1 or 1-2, so I'm hoping 4-5 will be smoooooooooth as silk. I used to say I was going to have 12. I'm thinking now I'll stop at five.

I think this pregnancy will be very emotional for me, because intellectually I know it will be the last one. I'm already sad that I'll never get that excitement from waiting for those 2 little lines to pop up on an hpt again. I can't believe we got pregnant this easy again! I'm in some online buddy groups with people who have been ttc for years, and I can't believe that we have been so blessed again.

I've already got a midwife lined up, and will have pumpkin at home just like the last one. But I'm in no rush. I am going to do my best to relish every single symptom, every single moment of this pregnancy and not wish it by too soon. I am blessed with the experience to know that time flies and soon this too will be just a bleep on the radar of life's road. My children are growing so fast, and I know this one will be running around before I know what hit me.

So I'm going to hang on to this pregnancy as long as I possibly can. Rejoice in the morning sickness (as much as that is possible), rub that big ole pregnant belly (when I get one that is - not that I'm rushing it!) and gestate in peace. I hope I remember to come back and read this for perspective when I'm about 38 or 39 weeks

I'm a mother of four, working on five, with two ex-husbands, a current husband, a full time job, a dog and a cat. I'm also in the middle of a nasty custody battle for my 14-year-old son which has been dragging on over a year now. Yeah, I'm pretty busy most days.

I'm actually at work today, which is where I have most of my "free" time. Kind of ironic, huh?

Husband is adamant about trying for number five, I am not so convinced (but I also am not totally averse to the idea). My daughter (age 10) would love to have a baby sister, but I think she'd have a fit if it happened to be another brother! I'm not so sure that I can do it, there just isn't enough help around the house and not enough hours in the day to do it all myself. Hubby was very good about helping for a week or two (while trying to convince me that we need another baby). But now since he thinks he's got me convinced that has sort of let up. He works 24-32 hours a week, and I work 40, yet I do at least 75% of the housework. What's wrong with this picture!!! He says that's okay because his work is much more difficult than mine. Men!