We are house hunting. This is not my idea of fun. It could be, in theory, but dh and I will never, NEVER agree on a house. So we'll probably end up staying right here . He does not want to look at anything that doesn't have a pool, which I say yeah, that's just what we need with all these little ones running around. I don't feel so safe with that idea. Not to mention that the houses with pools are for the most part out of our budget.

Now, if we're going to be moving, then I want to be moving up, not moving just for the heck of it. I want something with more space, or a bigger yard, less traffic, something! But he's looking at places with less bedrooms (we have 4 now, he's checking out 3), smaller yards (because 3/4 of the yard is taken up with the pool), etc. I just don't think we'll ever agree. Thank goodness I picked this house before he saw it and he was just stuck with it!

This house has its good and bad points, and I could in theory live in it for a while if it weren't for the giant spiders that keep invading my living space. We've had terminix out here and even they can't get rid of the invasion. And these are not your average every day, quarter-sized spiders, these are giants! I'm talking the diameter of a soda can here, without my usual exaggerations. In fact, dh thought for certain I was exaggerating (as I usually do when it comes to spiders) until he saw one with his own eyes. Now he believes me. Several problems with this... I have a severe arachnophobia, even when it comes to tiny spiders, and these giants send me into fits of hyperventilation and complete and utter helplessness. Second, I worry every day about what will happen if one of the young kiddies happen to see one before I do! The 2 youngest LOVE to pick up bugs, of any kind, and I'm scared for them.

So we have to move. But we can't agree on a house. Not even close. We have 4 more to do drive-bys on tonight, but so far we haven't even found one that we agree to call up the realtor and go in to see the inside . I wonder if everyone has it this rough house shopping or if dh and I just have different ideals when it comes to houses.

Well there's no real rush I guess so hopefully we can just take our time and maybe one will come up that suits us both. And my teenager doesn't want to switch schools again (understandably) which limits the area we can search in quite a lot...

Maybe I should resign myself to living with the giants.

I woke up to a big scare this morning, soaking wet covered in blood. I'm 14wks today, so had just begun to breathe a little easier and then this. I went to my OB and had an u/s done and the baby looked fine, strong heartbeat and moving all around. I do have a complete previa at the moment, however, which they think caused the bleeding. I'll have to get that rechecked at 20 wks, and if it hasn't moved up by then they'll check it again at 28 wks. At that point they said if it hasn't moved that it's not likely to, but they would recheck at 36 wks to make sure before scheduling a c/s. Hopefully it moves and it won't come to that, sure messes with my plans for a homebirth, huh? In the end I wouldn't mind if I had to have a c/s for something like that, but I'd prefer not to. My only bathroom is upstairs, and I *know* what c/s recovery is like (had one with my first)... that would NOT be fun. But of course I'd do it if it came down to that.

Hopefully it won't. This is most definitely my last pregnancy and baby, no doubt about that! This has been so hard on me (and my family) and it's very hard to relax and enjoy a pregnancy when things keep happening and you spend so much of your time worrying. I'm really trying though.

I was so scared this morning, and so sure I'd lost another one . I just couldn't think or get it together or stop the worry. I hope to not go through that again, hope it was an isolated event.

I didn't hear back from the other job, so I am going full time to the ER. I just need something where my hours are set, and my location is set. It's hard bouncing around from one place to the other, days one day and evenings the next. Very difficult to make plans or get any sort of a routine going. So as of next schedule (in a week or two) I'll be in the ER full time. Long story there, but feeling like I was sort of pushed into it. Still, I think it will be mostly a good thing.

The time is really flying by as far as the pregnancy goes. I'll be 14 weeks in 2 days, and it sure doesn't feel like it should be that many already! I'm sure this baby will be here and this pregnancy will be over before I know what hit me! Me and 3 kiddies went yard saling this morning, got some really good deals! Must have been a good day for it. Got a ton of stuff from one of the dr's at our ER, he has 2 sons a little older than my youngest 2 and they had really nice stuff and really cheap too! I'm talking a quarter for $30 pants that look like new cheap.

Love it when that happens!

Then we went to some where the people had junk more or less and wanted an arm and a leg for it. Go figure. Guessing they had to haul a lot of stuff back in the house at the end of the day, I sure didn't take any of it. I want cheap!

We went to the drive in last night, just me and the 3 youngest, to see Over the Hedge. That was an adventure. On the bright side, 11 and under are free, so I only had to pay for myself. $6 for 4 of us to go see a movie, I can live with that! My youngest almost killed me wiggling around on my lap, but mostly we had a good time.

Now the younger 2 are having a fighting match, and I'd better go intervene before it gets too out of hand. Never a dull moment!

Had a second interview for the other job, but haven't heard anything one way or the other yet. I guess they're taking their slow, sweet time as I thought I'd hear something last week for sure. No such luck.

This pregnancy is not easy, was sort of hoping to breeze through until 36 weeks or so before I started feeling like crap, but no such luck on that so far either. I've been met with awful cramping, which not only has me very worried but also leaves me doubled over in pain half the time. But they come and go, and my dr is in no hurry to see me so I guess I shouldn't worry too much. Have an appt. next week on Wednesday, so we'll see then I guess. I've popped out of all my clothes, and it's obvious to strangers that I'm expecting. I'm as big as my coworker who is 25ish weeks preggers with her first . I've also popped out of all of my bras and had to go shopping for new ones.

Work is work, and nothing exciting happening there. I've got a 3 day weekend next weekend, first one in a while, so that will be nice. Too bad hubby will be out of town all weekend, though, so it will be me and the kiddies. We'll probably have a slumber party in the living room, they enjoy that. Watch some movies and pop some popcorn and throw some sleeping bags on the floor.

Ds3 is doing well with his potty training. He hasn't pooed in the potty yet but he's getting pretty consistent with not pee-peeing in his pants. In time the rest will come.

Working late tomorrow, so I'm trying to stay up later tonight so I won't be asleep before my shift ends . Staying up past 9 or so is an accomplishment these days! Usually as soon as the kiddies are down, I'm out! No energy whatsoever. I'm too old for this!

Well, maybe not so much, we regsitered a woman in OB just yesterday who was 56! . Please don't let that be me! She had her baby this morning.

Off to watch something on the tube for a while and see if it can hold my attention over sleep. Not likely, but worth a shot!

I've been feeling really bad all weekend, and especially last night. Just blah, and kind of lightheaded/dizzy, and not quite "right." Today I slept on the couch literally ALL day long, and woke this afternoon as dh left for work with horrible, horrible tummy cramps. Of course that has me worried so I called the dr., who told me to lay on my left side for a while and force water; maybe I'm just dehydrated. So I've been doing that, and they have lessened in frequency, but not intensity. I'm worried sick because I stopped the progesterone supplements (per my dr.) on Friday, and don't know if there's a connection or not. I should be far enough along that the placenta has taken over, but still one can't help but worry. But we all know stress and worry doesn't help, so I'm trying just to relax and work on feeling better.

My mom is going to come over and pick up the kiddies as soon as ds3 wakes up from his nap, so I can lay around and rest the remainder of the evening. I just hope I'm feeling better tomorrow, as I have to go to work and really can't afford to be calling off (again)! And I have my second interview for the other job on Wednesday, which I would LOVE to have (no evenings, no weekends, are you kidding me?) so I absolutely HAVE to be feeling better!

Ah well I'm off to go lie down some more (which is very hard when you're preggers and forcing water - I'm running to the potty every 3 minutes!). Hopefully the yuckiness goes away soon.